Summertime with my babe had arrived and I’m loving it. Nice weather, beaches, parks and picnics is what fills our days now. We are getting plenty of fresh air and eating plenty of fresh fruit. Hunter and I have our first airplane ride together going down to Fresno to visit my cousin Katrina and her hubby right before I got I back to work. Two plane rides on the way down with a few hour layover… it should be interesting. I am hoping he will have whatever is bothering him right now taken care of because my little monkey has not been a happy guy these last couple of days. Either way I’m going to be stressed because anxiety and Sheena go together like peanut butter and jelly.
This month Hunter started walking using some guidance from his walker right around that time he started standing unassisted. It’s all happening so fast and I know the next two months are going to fly by. 2 months is all I have left to be home with my boy. Now it’s party planning time for his first birthday before I head off back to work.
Over on the other side of things hell has frozen over. Meaning that I have made contact with Hunters dad this past month. After my disassociation with Rae-lee and long nights thinking about my future and the future of my son i decided to make contact with him to ensure that what she had filled my head with was in fact not actually the case. She told me that I was crazy to think he wouldn’t come after Hunter and want a relationship with him. Now that could’ve been to scare me… which in the end worked. I made contact with him and we hashed out the past. We have talked a couple times now but I have come to the conclusion that he is not going to come after me. He is too wrapped up in his revolving door of multiple women coming in and out of his life. He last gf of about a year that had five kids ended up dumping him and leaving after what I’m sure was a horrible year of her life.
In talking with Larry it has done a few good things. Number one being I know he does not want to come after time with Hunter, he still continually leaves his children with his mother to go on dates instead of scheduling them every other weekend without his children. He is emotionally unstable calling me multiple times saying he wants to end his life because his gf left him, whines to ME about money troubles, says horrible degrading things about Rae-lee and her parenting, and lies to the women he is trying to trick into having a relationships with him, all of which he was dumb enough to send me in text messages. Not once did he ask how hunter is doing, ask what he enjoys eating, what he likes to do, what his delivery was like, if he has any health issues… not one word.
My favourite thing about it tho is that I look at him with pity now. He is a narcissist that is so lost and wrapped up in his own mind and thinks that others look at him the same way he looks at himself. It was actually entertaining to maintain a line of communication to watch him bury himself in a web of lies I have now caught in text messages and emails and multiple speaker phone conversations and when brought to his attention he tries to have his step mom cover his tracks which I’ve already screen shot and saved as my proof of the lies he tells himself and everyone else. He’s in the thick of his custody case right now with Rae-lee and knows now that I have the power to absolutely destroy him.
This man has done so much damage to the people around him it’s absolutely astounding to me. The disregard for anyone’s feelings but his own and having absolutely no idea that people see through his lies shocks me. He is a well educated, six figure earning general manager of a successful company and yet doesn’t have the insight or emotional maturity to know that people can see right through him. I feel sorry him.
Out of all of this I feel like I have come out on top. The what if’s I think weighed on me more than I wanted them to after being in contact with Rae-lee and now after speaking with the devil himself I know I can live in peace. I know I hold the power and he can live wondering when the knock at the door will come for all that back pay child support he “couldn’t afford to pay for anyways.” As he says. Yeah right a judge will absolutely agree with that when the time comes. *hard eye roll*
Right now I get this sweet, sensitive, feisty little man all to myself. My rules, my time, all my decisions. I get to be this guys mom and dad which means I get double the love ❤️