38 weeks

This week baby could be 6 and a half to 7 pounds in my belly. I went in to see my doctor today to get a sweep done. I was a little nervous because I heard it can be very uncomfortable which was true. She said she did the best she could but that my cervix is still very posterior right now. On the other side she mentioned that baby is very low and in the right position which would explain my peeing every 15 mins as he uses my bladder as his pillow.

I also spoke to her about induction and when that would happen should I go overdue because let’s face it I’m so antsy to get this baby out. What she said is that they would induce only 41+3 weeks which would be 3 weeks from today September 6th. My gut is telling me that is most likely what will end up happening. Don’t get me wrong I’d love to have him earlier but I just have a feeling that’s what will happen. I’d rather be prepared for that so that I’m not disappointed each day that I don’t go into labour. Now if the cramping would stop so I don’t keep wondering if it’s time that would help. I will however ask my doctor next week if we can go ahead and schedule it now so that I don’t get stuck waiting beyond that date.

My next bit of reading will be about induction. I’ve heard things that aren’t favourable like it can make the labour even longer and more painful then when natural labour happens. It doubles the risk of c section especially in first time moms and isn’t a guarantee to even get things going. Sometimes it take 2 or 3 tries for the induction to be successful which will be a very stressful situation I’m sure. On the other hand being overdue increases the risk of needing an assisted delivery using forceps (which I absolutely don’t want), a large baby, slowed heart rate for baby, breathing problems and slowed growth. I guess it’s all weighing out what is best for baby.

Im trying to prepare myself for this impending process that is getting closer and closer. Let’s face it I’m absolutely scared shitless. Who knows maybe this baby surprises us and comes in the next week but I’m not banking on that one but a girl can wish!

Hump Day Bump Day

I had a doctors appointment today and everything is looking healthy. I was also told that I could have a membrane sweep done with my permission to try to get the process going. so the doctor would examine and attemp to loosen the membrane from the cervix. My first thought is ouch!!

Ive had very uncomfortable contractions every other night since I had the hospital visit that usually go on for about 2 and a half hours. Wow do the hurt! I wouldn’t mind getting this labour going so that doesn’t keep happening. I get worried and scared when they start but then they stop just as quickly as the get started. Thinking about that happening every other night till my due date is depressing! I know labour is going to be so much worse but at least the end might come a little sooner. Plus this heat right now really gets to me. I guess only time will tell.

37 weeks and huge!



False Alarms False Labour

Well yesterday was a long ass day. I had woken up to a not so pleasant preggy symptom… I was leaking. I had the afternoon before too so when I told my doctor she she gave me a look and said yup I’m sorry but time to head to the hospital. If my water had broken then they will induce me to prevent infection. GOOD thing my mom came with me to that appointment.

We went to the hospital and I guess everyone in surrey decided it was a good day to be there too and go into active labour. We waited a long ass time. I had called my sister in law julie and told her to stay by the phone just in case but she decided to come even though she was suppose to be at work! What a team I have around me.

I was finally taken into a room after waiting almost 2 and a half hours and hooked up to machines to be monitored. After a while I started to get really bad back pain and had to stand…. then started feeling what I thought was the baby shoving his little booty way out into my belly. It took my breath away and made me stop and just focus on what was going on in my body. Julie asked me if I was having a contraction and I said no baby was just moving. Then it happened a few more times and julie unbeknownst to me started timing. I thought to myself no freaking way!! So every time it happened julie would look at her watch and say bAby is “moving” every 6 mins or so. Then the nurse after 2 and a half hours looked at the monitor and confirmed I was having contractions. Well the tears just started flowing. I was so scared!!

Im at the hospital having contractions 4 weeks early without a hospital bag, without my car seat in my car and realizing I am not ready but that it didn’t matter. Reality was setting in and I didn’t like it one bit. I have been saying I want this baby out but holy shit I was scared.

When I finally did get checked by the doctor she did a very painful exam to see if the water had broken which to my relief it hadn’t. My cervix hadn’t begun to dialate which meant that despite the contractions I could go home and monitor the contractions at home. Oh man! I was starving and relieved but honestly felt bad. My poor mom and julie were there for 6 hours with me and then we had to go home. I got absolutely no sleep with the contractions continuing through the night about 15 minutes apart. I couldn’t lay down as they were happening and had to roll out of bed to deal with the pain. Somewhere between 5 and 6 am they had all but stopped.

Now it’s time to pack a hospital bag and get that car seat in my car. I don’t want to be caught off guard like that ever again! Now I think this baby can stay in there another 2 weeks… not now or this week lol. Today will be a day of rest to get caught up on some much needed sleep. Yesterday was a mentally and physically draining day and one I won’t soon forget.



36 weeks

Wowza 36 weeks. I remember when I first got pregnant and thought that at the 35 week mark I’m pretty much done and with how I’m feeling I was so right! I’m so done. I woke up Saturday morning bright and early with a throbbing numb right hand. I though maybe I slept on it so I waited for the feeling to come back but it didn’t, it just continued to throb and tingle. I googled 36 weeks and with numb hand thinking something might be wrong and carpel tunnel popped up everywhere… another fun preggy symptom. I had such easy first and second trimesters, so now I feel like I’m making up for it.

I had a visit with my best friend who I met in my first days of high school and she had a whole bunch of things for me. She has two beautiful kids who are going to be 4 and 2 in December so she has been through it all before. This is the girl that made my high school years what they were with some of my best memories of boys, trouble, sleepovers and partying and now we are having babies that can grow with each other. She got emotional talking about how happy she was that I am having a baby and how brave she thought I was for deciding to do this on my own and for me to get away from a toxic situation with my ex. Of course it made me emotional but in a good way. I don’t know that I will ever have a friend like her again.

Today was my lil babes big brother Ollies 6 th birthday. His mom has done a bday party set up for August 7th which is 2 days after her due date. Brave girl she is!! She is so close to her due date and I’m so happy for her. It’s a scary thing to think I will be next but I honestly want this baby out of me. And I’m know she is feeling the same way. Hopefully for her it happens soon. Hell I’d be okay if I was 2 weeks early. Only time will tell.

35 weeks

It a hard to believe that I could be holding my lil man in 5 weeks. He is roughly 5 to 5 and a half pounds now and will continue to gain about half a pound each week from now on. He gets the hiccups sometimes 3 times in a day and they are so strong you can feel and see them jiggle my belly. The movements you can see through my clothing. My belly is measuring at about 41 inches with a weight gain total of 45 freaking pounds.😒 I’m reading that my boobs can start leaking anytime now which is just more great news. Haha not! My maternity pants are not even an option anymore… I actually prefer no pants at all. My waddle is full on but not completely because of the belly I don’t think, it’s the pain in my feet when I walk that is horrible. I wake up in early early morning around 5 am starving. So I eat a bowl of cereal and crawl back in to bed.

I see my doctor again on Wednesday and will probably be scheduled for appointments every week from now on till baby is here. It will make it easier being off work now though. Although being off work I find the days seem a little longer now. I know it’s best for me to be off work, the aches and pains are bad and the hormones and mood swings are just dangerous. Lol today for example I woke up just miserable… nothing a McDonald’s chocolate milkshake couldn’t fix of course.

Im getting a few things ready and done each day for baby. His clothes are all washed and sorted according to the sizes. My dad and mom put together my change table and we got that into the nursery. Today my mom and I went and picked up grey bins to organize things for the change table, things like the butt cream, baby powder and lotion and diapers. I have the baby’s bag packed for the hospital with the going home outfits picked out. Next is to get my hospital bag ready and get the car seat in my car so I can take my little man home. So exciting!!

Today Julie found me her second round of maternity clothes that are the next size up because… yup I’m large lol. She also found me a baby swing which is small and compact and perfect for my house. The perks of being the second one to have a baby. My best friend has also kept some things for me that I’m going to go through for things I think I need. I’m surrounded by some pretty amazing people!

I guess I should start coming up with a birth plan soon. I know one thing for sure and that is I am absolutely going to ask for the epidural when the time is right. I don’t handle pain well and will not be one of the ladies that wants to try this labour thing without it. More power to the ladies who do it that way, I’m just not one of them. Something I should be discussing with my doctor very soon. Let the 5 week countdown begin!

current cravings: red grapes




Hump Day Bump Day

This is also the first day I had the feeling of lightning crotch feeling. My friend asked me a couple weeks ago if I’ve felt it yet and luckily I hadn’t. Today omg 😲 I understand what she was taking about. Feels like someone sticking a needle in your cervix. It’s a WTF kind of pain.


34 weeks